Dilemna...

I always feel like I am having some sort of dilemna. Right now we are looking at making a locational change for our family. Houses are so freaking expensive. Its not the price tag on the house. Oh no, its the monthly payment every month for the next bazillion years. And if I move I want to NEVER have to move again. I want my final home an unfortunately I don't see that happening unless I make some serious lifestyle changes. It's not that I am afraid to make those changes, It's that I am afraid I am not disciplined enough to stick to those changes. I am not a naturally disciplined person. I cheat on diets, i don't take work seriously, I don't frequent the gym as I should, I impulse buy, I haven't done what I need to do to be good in the kitchen and I just plain do what I want.

How do people do it? How do they stick to a budget? How do they stay committed to being a good homemaker? How? How? How? I can do it. That I know. But can I stick to it? I would need to in order to get the kind of home I want, where I want it and not have to go back to work full-time. My biggest qualm is that I get my house and I don't stay disciplined and then I have to not go to school and work full-time and have no one to blame for my situation but me. I need some sort of frugal, homemaker rescue. Someone to come in, kick me when I am down and help me be disciplined and keep my wandering eye on that light at the end of the tunnel.

Changes...

Yay! So I finally got my part time shift. I am stoked! It starts Friday.

It's been awhile...

I need to update- that I know. I am now on a couldn't be worse shift where I have to be to work @ 5 am and I am still in limbo on whether or not I can switch to part-time status. Once I get home from work I am too exhausted to do much of anything besides play referee to the kiddos. Our sitter is finally back in town and will start watching our kids tomorrow so that will make things a little easier. I have gotten so spoiled by having a caretaker come to our house and watch our girls that having to go pick them up seems like a huge chore. I know, enough whining. But it doesn't end there. ;)

Hannah is going to St.George this week with my mother-in-law to visit Hannah's great-great grandmother. She is lucky to have such living relatives! I am nervous because she is going to be gone for 4 days! I have NEVER been seperated from her for that long, except of course for me to go on vacation. It's a little surreal for her to have her own life and to be able to go on a trip without me and her biggest concern in how much she is going to miss Justyce. It just reminds me that someday she won't need me anymore and how much I don't want that day to come. Tomorrow I will update with pics. We have had some big events since I last posted. J turned 1 and the chicks partied it up @ the Utah Democrats victory party. More to come on all that...